By "no connection" I mean there's no connection between ideas because I don't have any.
Really, as of late, I've had no ideas. Over and over it's been the same routine this second semester: math, math, physics, Japanese, math, math, Japanese, math, physics lab, French essay. When I get to "French essay," I've got a problem. I have no ideas.
The majority of the people in the class either have trouble understanding the readings or writing grammatically well. I've lost my mojo.
No, I haven't gotten laid.
So that's the problem. I've lost my mojo, and, well, it shows in my writing. I'm relatively dispassioned about the stories we're reading for some reason, and I'm canny to blame that on the number flow through my head (e.g. math, math, physics, math), but you'd think I'd at least have some ideas. But my creative juice is gone.
And I miss playing the piano. O why, Tufts piping pipe system, did you have to explode over all the pianos? Yes, that's right, the pipes exploded and torrents of water came down and flooded our supply of the only thing I can play well that isn't a video game. (Frisbee in 2007? B-TEAM FOR LIFE!) I was just listening to Artur Rubinstein playing Chopin's first Ballade, and how beautiful can you get?
Flames to dust, lovers to friends, why do all good things come to an end? asked Nelly Furtado such that it would get her the #1 spot on Billboard's world-spanning pop charts. Well, the flow of the second semester has emptied out, and here I am, in the dullest of all possible worlds. By "I" I mean my creative process. Let's go.
Let's go, dammit, let's go!
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ugh - now you know what engineering is like. this is why you should stay in arts, haha
it'll pick up. i've sorta been feeling the same way too, and my conclusion is just that the problem is I haven't really settled in very well here and found something i give a damn about.
on that note, tae kwon do tournament bus leaves in 25 hours! hopefully this'll be a new niche.
but well - i'd say if applying the past to the present doesn't work out, then the best path is to find something new. give it a try maybe?
Ashish (that's pronounced AH-shish, with the "A" as in CALM, the "i" as in fish, and the stress on the first syllable)
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